in the same room,
just within an hour,
the bright room dimmed itself,
with incoming thunder,
and slowly, sun rays started to shine again.
and because of that hour,
i've missed my chance to drive back to uni as the traffic worsens when everyone is getting ready for home from work.
i wasn't allowed to drive at night due to my eyesight
and very much i do not want to be stucked in a jam.
i guess i'd just have to get up extra early tomorrow and make my way back.

second week of the 4th semester has ended.
loads of shits happened.
loads of things lost.
loads of money wasted.
loads of people come and were gone.
sometimes i'm just fascinated that how can things happened so quickly.
the only time when time momentarily stops is then lectures and tutorials are being conducted. *laughs*
anyway lecturers are pushing fast this semester, and tutorials will be starting from the third week onwards.
in the last semester, my tutorials only started in the second month.
sigh the need to cope up with my uni life again.

i am barely emotional because i don't think i have emotions ?
people see smiles on my face because hey a gloomy and fierce face wouldn't make people's day good.
so i smile when i can though i do not want to.
and still i talk a lot.
because i cannot bear the silence and it will make things awkward.
so i talk.
but compared to the last semester,
the time where i try to converse has lessen, because practically,
i don't give a fuck, anymore.
you treat me nice, and you'll be treated the same.
i don't want wars between people. i just want peace.
so give me peace and i will give you yours.
it's kinda weird talking bout this now heh
probable because when i am alone, i'd have such thoughts because i am all alone in my free space.

anyway, i'm not all like that.
only towards the people in my uni i supposed ?
because i've had a brilliant weekend, because my companions are awesome.
there's my sister, and J, and Chels, and aunt who flew back, and mum.
pretty much made up my weekend, all thanks to people like these.
i had a brilliant weekend last week too, with the idgaf gang lol
thanks for the term i love it.
yeah i'm positively sure that everything is brilliant when i am not in that damned uni.
i am emotionless being in that uni, around ppl in that uni.
the uni is great, much more that i can ever asked for, but just my problem.
because i don't know what to figure anymore.

all in all,
my faith is constantly being tested,
but still i chose to trust in Him.
things would've been worse,
and i am just grateful that i am being under His care.
thank you, Daddy :)

and for now,
i think i shall just go watch a movie.