we are all mad here.

goals in life :
to enjoy good food,
to own pretty clothes and shoes,
without the need of worrying for the costs.
goals since i was born lol

oh & also to learn many languages (japanese and korean first ehe) ,
to have beautiful memories lived, captured and penned in life.

blessed to have You, Lord.
blessed to have my wonderful pals through my years <3 data-blogger-escaped-br="br">
wanted to whine but then all was well today.
really very blessed.
and this flu, i'm feeling so very guilty because i sacrificed loads of trees and am going to sacrifice more.
i'm so sorryyy.
maybe i should use a hankie instead ?

missed my chance to bond with
it's a perfect chance and i had imagined that before.
sigh well maybe because i have something good instead ?
we'll make it for the trip before september next year.
overseas trip :D

and this sudden sadness when i imagine i have no money to buy good food
D:
suddenly so motivated to own money lol
but cant own without earning aihh

nah here's to crave
T.T

pray for wisdom,
pray for guidance.

what mom told me to do so before exams,
though i'd been doing that.
but, she asked me to.
and i guess that's sweet.


really can't slack anymore.
but i just can't find that push.
and all worried for PA again
cause if i fail, there's no chance for me at all.
that sudden thought and then it dies down.
why am i like this.

sleeping on my bed.
good to see you again mum :)

Jing Wen , the BFFLF in the world. ♥

one of our Few pictures together. & also my first face among my posts lol

then we had ice cream !
thank you hao peng you :D

waiting while they choose the flavours ^^

"i'm a happy child :D"

another one. it's sad how few pictures we actually have :(

Chee Yong, the hao peng you :D

went for Cold War,
it's really awesome.
& Aarif Rahman zomg, sweet :D
hope to watch Breaking Dawn 2 next week !

went for dinner at Hana Mizuki.
planned to eat western but Jing Wen don't wanna fall sick from eating fried stuffs.
so japanese it is.

Unagi Zen. should've called shake instead :(

dapao-ed for sis. & Wallie wants some haha so cute i can die T.T

dad's purchase in Jusco . he loves the department haha

oh and 2 carrots from ikea :D it's for Wallie actually but i guess i'll take over hehehh

so in love with sis hi-top

as for today,
the 25th,
i've been slacking like shit past few days.
mum was in KL,
& i've activated facebook for games lol.
controlling self gahhh

--
seriously i thank God for the strength.
guess sometimes people just don't take me seriously.
it's pointless explaining to people,
because nothing changes actually.
i take that very well because i know.
& this is solely a place for me to express my thoughts,
to pen down my memories.
ah the pain when you are restricted from writing whatever you want
because you might just offend the rest of the world.
that pain, that pain.

i'm very thankful for what i have.
for what that has always been at my sight.
and thank you readers,
because i don't expect my posts to be read,
nor i'm expecting them to be read.

God bless
xx.

Happy Thanksgiving !
well it was actually yesterday and today is said to be Black Friday, which is the day when shopping for the season starts officially.

i would really want to shop too
but seriously i'm mad broke.
still owe 2 of my friends money,
*dui bu qi will return asap*
even though i spotted so many pieces of pretty clothes i really can't do anything lol
temptation please go away.

oh so yeah i've wasted my 2 days blankly,
and the next paper is 4 days away FML.

thanksgiving.
i've so much things, people, memories to be thankful for.
this is going to be such a long post,
you can skip it already hehehe.

so,
it's the 23rd today,
and it has been the 4th year we've moved into this beautiful house.
though it's not big, not well furnished but then there's warmth.
i love my house, i love my family.
thank You :)

and then there's so many friends and humans to be thankful for.
people that have been helping me behind my back,
people that have been encouraging me non stop,
people that have been loving me and caring for me,
people that have always been there for me.
thank you, all of you and there's never enough of thank you for this bunch of people :')
and thank You .

and then there's my stuffs.
those solid things where i can see and hold, i'm so thankful that i'm this fortunate to own them.
i'm actually quite a materialistic person,
i always want what i want,
and i really tend to change such behavior.
have to thank parents for the money,
which i spent on impulse most of the time and on food,
and of course the Provider of this family.
thank You.

and then there's all these beautiful memories that have happened.
good or bad, everything is always sorted out in their best way..
thank You :)

and then in the middle of these two days,
something came up,
i was so devastated and sad and i really didn't know what to do.
i hoped for the best, i prayed, it got worse, i accepted the fact, i try to think positive, i accepted myself for being positive, and then it turned out to be better.
from worse to never better.
and i wanted to cry.
it's all i hope for, i prayed for,
and thank You for listening to my prayers.

all of these can't happen without You.
You are just always there,
looking over us, my family, my friends.
thank You, for being so protective;
thank You, for being the provider for my family;
thank You, for making the impossible possible;
thank You for knowing what i've been going through and giving Your best for me;
thank You, for ensuring i'm alive and well;
thank You, for giving me wisdom and guidance;
thank You, for never leaving me no matter what happens.
there's so much more to thank but there are really too much.

God is good.
He is always this good.
i've never once express my feelings and here it is.
i really can't live such blessed life without Your presence.
thank You for making everything happen,
for me.

i love You Lord,
and i will love You always.
& i'm sorry.

first time after one whole year. hyee !

actually did quite badly for pengjian am 2.

lunch with mum !

ah so this is it.
tomorrow's the day i've been fearing of since 18 months ago lol
the whole purpose of me being in form 6 is for tomorrow,
and tomorrow is just only the beginning of my 27 days torture.

so in order to celebrate the coming of this day,
went to get some korean food at JJ Kimbab-the only korean restaurant in my town-
with le best friend and le sister.
well we kinda planned this long ago but then it didn't work out,
so tadah ! it's finally today :)

le food :

free desserts ^^ thankyouu

don't know why it's like my last meal hahaha
okay lah to give me semangat those food lol

All the best to every F6-ers out there,
& thank you for the kind wishes.
i'll do well.
i hope, or at least i'll try.

to freeeeedommmmmm :)
xx

still procrastinating sigh.

chicken flavoured x mushroom sausages.

teehee ^^

the list :O

sigh, guess i won't be sleeping today.
bye bye x.

FAM : i really love sleeping T.T