we are all mad here. : April 2013

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3:52 PM † jeszlynnn 0 Comments Category : food , joys , outings

holla it's the 12th break already :D on March 27th.
but then i'm not that joyous cause my phone has died.
well i dropped it into a pail of water and i starred at it for 3 secs before taking it up
sigh
so this post will be the last post i'm posting pics cause i sent it for repair liao.
thank you ah Chun Han !

anyway, it's a fine wednesday so,
movie day :D
watched Olympus has Fallen with sister and haopengyou,
zomg it's really good,
so so so good !
and i get to watch it in hall 1 haha
i have a thing for hall one cause it's big and spacious,
& it's big teehee

had pizza for lunch.
disappointed lah :(
mega's one is really better.
why everything also better one haha

after that went to Starbucks to redeem free drinks.

ordered Caramel Cream Chips,

but they charged me for the chips.

in my store,

we don't charge cause it's free drink,

whatever drink.

so even though you customize, shouldn't get charged right ?

anyway the drink was not to my liking.

it's all milky no caramel at all.

sis went to mega's store that night, her friend ordered the same drink,

& she tells me it's so nice, so much better.

after movie,
dropped sis at mega cause she's watching another movie.
happy dao..
whereas me and haopengyou went to shiong hoi tan for food :D
omg had been craving for yong tao fu and its' gravy so badly,
finally get to eat :D
and as usual if you let me pick and choose,
i'll go beyond my limits,
& these are what i ordered for two.
still got side vege and mee somemore,
& our stomachs are still stuffed with pizza lol
ended up me dapao a few leftovers haha

heaven.

after dinner,

went to roam around town lol

beach to packed so i just drive around until we reach a very far place haha

really an achievement XD

last picture.

before phone gets repaired.

forgotten i went there with mum or jun/jing.

cause always meet jun/jing at muar e one haha

so to the next break :D

Alive.

3:37 AM † jeszlynnn 0 Comments Category : love , music

Let's make this fleeting moment last forever
So, tell me what you're waiting for?
I'm gonna keep it frozen here forever,
There's no regretting anymore.
It's worth the wait, even so far away.
I'm making the night mine until the day I die
No lights to brake when you're hanging by fate
You know what it feels like when you're dancing blind
All alone, just the beat inside my soul
Take me home, where my dreams are made of gold
In the zone where the beat is un-controlled.
I know what it feels like
Come on make me feel alive.
Meet me under shining lights,
I've been waiting right here all my life
Feelings you can't deny that you're living, open up your eyes
And I just wanna sink into your crazy laughter
Come on make me feel until the pain don't matter
Every second here makes my heart beat faster
Finally think I found what I'm chasing after.
All alone, just the beat inside my soul
Take me home, where my dreams are made of gold
In the zone where the beat is un-controlled.
I know what it feels like
Come on make me feel alive.

all from tumblr

All alone, just the beat inside my soul

Take me home, where my dreams are made of gold.

krewella - alive.

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3:14 AM † jeszlynnn 0 Comments Category : blessed , gratitudes , STPM , thoughts

long crap post about my emotion timeline lol

Eighteen of March,

one very fine and er nervous day i had been waiting & not longed for.

so it's results day.

sigh.

requested for off day today so i can go get my results lol

had so many planning with hao peng you about how is he going to tell me my results but nah they didn't work haha

woke up at 8.30 to have a super early breakfast with him.

super moodless but still i managed to eat gan lao mian.

& he only had a tart.

really feeling so nervous i can die.

the night before i worked till 1am,

slept at 4am cause i couldn't stop thinking.

it had been days when i go to bed late,

cause i couldn't stop thinking.

actually, the second thing that was on my mind during the whole exam period is,

shit i don't want results day to come.

but i know eventually it would, & i start to wonder how would it be like.

i couldn't feel much,

because this will be the fourth time i'm taking one major exam's results.

no big deal right.

but to think of it,

this result could really change my life lol

well in my mind i was hoping 2A 2B, enough for me.

i think i did quite okay for all of the papers, mainly because

- haopengyou really guided me so so much for the past few months haha i think driving him crazy cause i was going crazy too.

- i did not sleep at all during exam time (except for PA1 i really couldn't stand it)

- i really check, for the first time check thoroughly what i had written.

- did extra questions, & really use up at least 1 page for 1 question.

forgotten which paper i actually handed up 18 papers in total, shocked my mum cause she says no examiner will read them all.

well, insecurity, you tend to write them all.

since hao peng you is a form 6 teacher, he would be able to see the results earlier.

and then we promised not to be sad all alone.

he has his expectations, whereas i, just don't wanna be sad.

i left house to fetch jingwen around 11.

it was weird cause he hasn't called, cause he would have known already.

so i texted him, and in 5 mins' time, he called back with super urgent voice, and it really made me scared.

he kept saying i did good, ask me to ask my mum to go to school and stuffs,

but i can't figure anything out.

his voice, super normal, i don't know is he sad or happy for himself or i don't know is he sad or happy for me.

i was thinking,

he probably wouldn't want me to feel sad so cheered me by saying i did good ?

cause i told him my good is 3.0, happiest if i get 3.3.

so i really couldn't figure what is he thinking at that moment.

but my heart was thumping anyway, hoping a 3.3.

reached school,

saw those familiar faces.

and can't stop feeling scared.

haopengyou went home to fetch his mum.

i think he may had achieved what he wanted,

but he told me before regardless what's his results, his mother wanna be there.

but then i didn't see that happy face on him so i really wonder.

stepped into the hall, get back my koperasi money :D,

took a seat and then it started.

it all started.

principal go talking bout the stats,

i can say that's my very first time being so attentive,

listening to what he wants to deliver.

but at the time my mind is blank.

like blank.

do you know how hard is it to feel ?

because you don't know what is coming next what to feel ?

i'm so scared.

i messaged sis, she thought i was in trouble and started calling me.

i nervous until the point i fb mei mei telling her how freaking scared am i and then sigh i just wanted to tell her.

gawd i miss that child :(

hao pengyou kept wanting to tell me my results,

i wanted to hear but then i can't bear to hear it's so nerve wrecking i couldn't think.

but i regretted.

i should have heard from him anyway.

i'm really sorry.

and then he started to announce.

i really pray those who get 4.0 aren't those who cheated in every single exam.

they cheat not to pass but to get higher marks.

hello i failed everytime it never occurred to me to cheat but you people ?

need to be kiasu until like that one meh -.-

oh they cheated in the real exam too.

with 3 invigilators in a single classroom.

crazy much -.-

anyway those who get 4.0 are super good people,

1 from physics class, & 2 from mine.

yayyy Brenda & hao peng you got them all flat.

congrats congrats *pops confetti*

so hao peng you did it :D

super genius people God bless these awesome children :)

so one by one people walked up the stage,

and me down there just starring blankly.

and the next thing, i wouldn't have seen coming in my entire life.

the screen just popped my name up, with one results below my name, i never ever expected.

i was sitting so comfortably at my seat and then jingwen was like

: " ei, jie ling, ni eh "

the first person i tried to find is haopengyou cause it's so very unbevlievable.

he just nod at me and there i made my way for the stage.

i'm still very blank.

i can't listen i can't think i can't sense.

and i think i trembled a lot.

i took my slip from my principal,

he asking me questions and all i do is only by shaking my heda cause idk wtf should i feel

i mean is this real ? i this mine ? why am i here ?

i opened up my slip and it's not a prank lmao.

3A- & 1A.

never in my life i had something this good,

to be able to walk up the stage,

to be thanked and appreciated by people who do not even know me.

*personal thoughts :

stupid school who don't even know who am i,

said i was targeted to get such results.

shit la really every teacher just target me to get principal only which is C.

do you all even bother to mould me better ?

of my 100% success, i think you all only contributed 20%.

i mean teachers never once looked at me cause i wasn't bright i wasn't smart.

how is it to feel when you suddenly became appreciated because if what you had achieved ?

this school had never been supportive of me,

and seriously i hate this school so much i wanna crush every piece of it.

i trembled and i can't thank God enough for what i had.

so many blessings from Him, so many congratulations from everyone,

i can't thank each and every one of you.

thanks to those who didn't stop building me up,

especially hao peng you who had such enormous faith in me,

my 2 mothers,

3 classmates,

and then my bunch of AA & TA friends who have never stop being supportive,

regardless wherever they are,

huiching, chels, chinteck, chunhan, zhenwei, sukwy zhen de xie xie ni men :")

i wasn't crying, didn't intended to,

but until i heard my mum's voice.

gawd what power she has in her voice.

started tearing when i told her my results.

so eager to hug her.

unlike in 2010, i had Jess Minn by my side during spm results time i cried over her shoulder.

after everything. came back home to be greeted and hugged by mum,

wallie got all excited and wanted to join us too haha

Jess Minn didn't have much response.

Jess Shynn can hardly believe when i fetched her back.

anyway i bought her McD cause me is happy.

bought omma a set too.

she's feeling rather down.

after settled everything,

brought my 2 mums,

omma & mammi to the beach.

i just feel good being with them.

plus i wanna be there for them together to go through this phase.

with the wind blowing,

it's nice letting everything go.

had dinner with family & grandparents at night.

grandpa was the happiest i think.

cause he has always believed in me.

he even said he'd chopped his head down if i can't get into uni.

haha i'm really blessed.

others despite being shocked,

they are very happy i think.

and i got a warm text from Beijing !

love you so much mei mei <3

pretty much sums up my favourite break of all.

after 10 off days,

here came the day i had been waiting and not waiting for.

i can't thank God enough really.

i'm so blessed.

i'm really very blessed.

thank You so so much Lord.

thank you hao peng you :)

credits : hazelnutcoffeeplease

mothers & i.

live it.

1:30 PM † jeszlynnn 0 Comments Category : blessed , thoughts

at this corner,
with my little quiet thought.

one of what makes me feel it's worthwhile to live,
is having dad's cooked dishes with you wherever you go.

this is my break time,
and i will not accept me crying while eating right now.

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2:02 PM † jeszlynnn 0 Comments Category : food , outings , thoughts

it's one week i vaguely remember anything.

i guess due to the nervousness that's getting me explode cause results day is in 7 days' time.

March 11 : Monday

yay came home to this crab looking at me.

& it's all for myself XD

March 12 : Tuesday

craving for gan lao mian,

so had breakfast with hao peng you after his class.

after that i went home to sleep haha]

then had lunch with Amanda mammi, her 2nd day at work :D

was supposed to bring sis to some seminar but in the end mum saved my ass lol.

met them at McD after my lunch with Amanda.

keropok lekor.
my lunch haha

gan lao miannn

coke floar ftw.

really love foam like this.
why always not consistent one T.T

March 13 : Wednesday
new food arrived :D
er hao peng you came by i for got for what dy lol
i think he fetched me home ?

heaven.
whipped cream with extra Extra caramel drizzle :D

March 14 : Thursday.

OFF DAY !

went jogging with Chin Teck.

haha our routine back then when he came back from college.

so finally after 1/2 years or more,

we went jogging again.

and abc after that.

oh and this is Thursday's sky.

i always love Thursday's skies.

they never failed to be pretty.

and as i looked, shit another four days sigh.

was supposed to have dinner with Amanda haha

but i didn't contact her until the last minute,

& she remembered & forgotten so she had dinner with her mum.

well at least we still managed to eat out,

& did some beach strolling lol

March 15 : Friday.

i seriously do not remember.

except for fetching sis back from school & to tuition.

March 16 : Saturday.

can't remember of anything at any rate lol

oh yes.

dad bought an induction cooker.

when mum asked why,

he said : for her to use in uni.

FML what i don't get sigh 7 i really freaked out.

March 17 : Sunday.

same shift with omma,

& this :

is like my final meal.

because results day is tomorrow i feel like dying hahahaha

anyway came home to rice and dishes.

dapaoed for me from hakyigai.

i really wanna cry T.T

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2:23 AM † jeszlynnn 0 Comments Category : blessed , food , joys , outings

basically more to a food post this week lol
i am really really very sad because i just can't stop eating T.T
really have to watch my weight as it is rising and gawd i am so much fleshier i wanna die :(

but anywayy,

March 5th : Tuesday
had my Starbucks Experience class.
it was really over-whelming to know so much about the company i'm working for
really salute those founder of this company.
bet it must be though back then without all the techs.
so proud haha
went google once i got bcak home.
& i really love the idea of the siren.
& it's symmetrical.
i love symmetrical stuffs >.<
and bought tumblers today.
salary T.T

Asian Dolce Latte.
new launch :D

March 6th : Wednesday

dinner.

and then i had this stupid craving for telur dadar lol
hao peng you picked me up from work at 11pm,
so ngam Jun & Jing dropped by to give my my advance bday present, it's really very sweet of them :')
we chatted till 11.40pm only i left for our supper.
sorry hpy made you waited for so long haha
yay so craving fixed.

forever feeling sorry towards hpy cause
when i eat he eats, which means
when i spend, he spends too.
but when i gain weight, he no gain weight -.-
so unfair right.
sorry la partner in crime but thank God you are here :D

March 7th : Thursday

another failed work lol

went for mum's company's seminar after shift,
dropped by starbucks & redeem hpy's bday cake.
well i forced him to cause i was craving again lol
got myself caramel frap, with extra drizzle yumsss.
super love this baked marble cheese cake but a lil too dry :(

March 8th : Friday
omma's off day, my night shift.
went to McD to discuss stuffs and yay got my hotcakes with maple syrup.
damn good their maple syrup ^^