we are all mad here.

i should really save my miserable self by studying this instant.


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i decided i can't because studying is miserable itself.
i'd be miserable anyway.

i have been living my life a little unproductive for the past few days.
well after all submissions and presentations were due, i find myself a little free
and thus motivated to spend some cash, which i did.

been out on Friday, Saturday, and went for a after event "party" last night.
and when i have the time,
i often find myself doing nothing and i know that shouldn't be the way.
i wanted to clean my room, but i don't know where to start.
my roommate has been revising for finals, but i am still reluctant to pick up a book.
I've finished The Mentalist S6, one that i didn't want to watch cause CBI had closed down,
because there are no other dramas to entertain me at the time being pfft.
60 more episodes till i finish HXH because i had to see the state that Kite is in right now.
would love to watch Psycho Pass II but i decided i should wait till the whole series is out,
because having to chase episode after episode is killing me, like what Sailor Moon Crystal had done to my poor soul TT
no nice korean drama, and i don't wanna start one anyway because i'm sure that i'd skip all the details for the ending.

Study Week is up in a week, third semester is wrapping up soon.
i've missed home.
and too bad i cant follow the others back last week.

now i just need to be a little motivated to start flipping my course's books.
sigh

entering into the third week of this mess.

hello.
worry not for i have not forsaken you.
am just busy but i don't know what have i done to get my hands so full.
and then money spent like water i wonder why too :(
life is still pointless at this moment, yes a month before my finals.
am still sorting out the pieces though but sometimes deep in my mind i just hope i do not have to know what i am doing, what i have to do.
ahh this inner struggle again.

promise you by the next post, i'll get my messed up self fixed.
probably because there aren't any deadlines, therefore i let myself go on with life like this.

btw xiao hong is in town !
but to feed her is extremely expensive.
because of the slopes and the uneven roads.
i even got one of her tyre punctured on her second day pffft.

went to CHC KL for the first time today.
after so many years of ah Bern inviting me, glad i manage to visit her church this time !
but it was Jun who invited me for their production this time haha
it was really awesome.
and the people who put the production together are doubtless amazing.
God's people are just wonderful.
God Himself is wonderful.
thank you so much Jun ! wouldn't be there without you !
but too bad didnt manage to see both Jun and ah Bern.
but am happy enough to be able to see Geen & JY.
thank you so so much <3

that feeling in church.
reminds me so so much of my youth camp back then.
because at that camp was where i truly get to experience God,
and today i felt that again.
i have been backsliding for long enough,
but i have never doubted my faith.
it's just me.
the problem is with me.
another piece to be sorted.

life is good so far.
and better it will be i know.

well just a little update before i roll on with my life.

it's going to be a fairly busy fortnight,
with presentations to prepare,
and due dates that are closing in.
gonna have practices for SUKEM,
sort of like the biggest sports event for my uni.
then there's program's minutes to prepare and also letters,
that need to be approved.
apart from all these,
i need time for dramas hahaha
life is fairly productive lately,
and i hope i will be able to cope on with such spirit till the end lol

know what has been motivating me lately ?
i present you this awesome beat.



well there's also Min Goo and Soo Ah.
kpop idols from BtoB & APink.
so happy to see Chorong on screen in a drama haha
she's my bias and my goddess.
these two are sweet as well.

we then went to Brown Pocket for dessert.
this place is so famous on social medias so we had to try.
who knows when we will be going to Penang again haha
thanks to J who checked out this place.

so here's it.
i reached the room and both Jingwen & J were already asleep.
my tummy was so bloated i don't know why but i decided not to care and took a bath.
afterwards i felt like vomiting and thus i vomited, like 3 times before i hit the sack.
when i thought it was all over,
my body starts messing with me,
i felt cold and hot at the same time, couldn't sleep and felt like puking again.
this whole thing bugged me for my entire night,
and for the first time i find sleeping hard.
mad hard.

so the next morning when they were awake and getting ready i really couldn't do anything.
i have no energy at all and i felt so pain inside,
so my besties went out for breakfast and i tried to sleep.
they came back with porridge ( how sweet of them ) with me still dizzy.
i then forced myself up and wasted lots of their time.
i ate and packed my stuffs and stared at the window,
trying to force another spoon into my mouth.
after about 5 mouthfuls,
i puked again -.-
yeap i was that sick.

we went to Queensbay mall with me being like a lifeless person.
i could have stayed in the room,
and then Jiingwen can pick me to the bus station when it's time,
but i really don't wanna trouble her.
gave them too much problems already,
so basically when they walked about in the mall,
i lied down dead in Starbucks.
for two hours hahah
Jie Min came over to accompany me but i was too dead to even talk to her.
so sorrrryyy and thank you so much <3
after that Jingwen wanted to bring us to makan her fav chicken rice.
too bad i was really sick to eat, and too bad it wasn't opened.
aihhhh puked another round before entering the car and off we went to the bus station.

slept through my way home and stopped by the R&R.
was feeling so so so much better by then.
really don't know what is wrong with my body nowadays sigh.
aunt picked me up from Kelana Jaya,
i went home and took a real hot shower and i ate kimchi,
luckily no puking, nothing.
haha

well that concludes my first Penang trip !
sorry that you have to read my sick moments more than seeing pictures haha

thanks la Wen for bringing us here to taste their famous laksa and cendol.
but i had ABC instead cause i don't do cendol opps.









we wanted to go to Persiaran Karpal Singh but the rain just wouldn't stop :(