everytime when I have the space to breathe, I'll go thinking what a messed up life I have.

I haven't been sleeping regularly. for the third week now.

I say good night when people rise to the morning sun.

but I haven't been studying. it's just assignments, and it's not last minute work. well about two of them.

I've been doing my work I have been coping. but I don't understand why now. 

my floor is a mess. 

my cupboard is a mess.

even my bed is a mess.

somehow i felt that i've done more this semester. but on what ? I couldn't figure.

perhaps uni life is supposed to feel like that? and I just got the taste of it.

during the event week, after having meeting and all, we would go for supper. even at 2am. so for that week, I went to McD four times, and I've ordered a set each time. I felt like a uni student then.

now I felt more like a uni student. writing this crap at 4.16am in the morning.

I'm messed up. really. and my mind is constantly fcked up because I couldn't think.

too many people I have promised to meet, too many programs to attend, till the extent I don't know what class I have on what day now.

i couldn't even name the date and day.

this is how bloody fcked up my brain is right now. and for the past 2 weeks. Empty and messed up. 

so tired. and i just want to sleep. 

*yawns*