hello.
worry not for i have not forsaken you.
am just busy but i don't know what have i done to get my hands so full.
and then money spent like water i wonder why too :(
life is still pointless at this moment, yes a month before my finals.
am still sorting out the pieces though but sometimes deep in my mind i just hope i do not have to know what i am doing, what i have to do.
ahh this inner struggle again.

promise you by the next post, i'll get my messed up self fixed.
probably because there aren't any deadlines, therefore i let myself go on with life like this.

btw xiao hong is in town !
but to feed her is extremely expensive.
because of the slopes and the uneven roads.
i even got one of her tyre punctured on her second day pffft.

went to CHC KL for the first time today.
after so many years of ah Bern inviting me, glad i manage to visit her church this time !
but it was Jun who invited me for their production this time haha
it was really awesome.
and the people who put the production together are doubtless amazing.
God's people are just wonderful.
God Himself is wonderful.
thank you so much Jun ! wouldn't be there without you !
but too bad didnt manage to see both Jun and ah Bern.
but am happy enough to be able to see Geen & JY.
thank you so so much <3

that feeling in church.
reminds me so so much of my youth camp back then.
because at that camp was where i truly get to experience God,
and today i felt that again.
i have been backsliding for long enough,
but i have never doubted my faith.
it's just me.
the problem is with me.
another piece to be sorted.

life is good so far.
and better it will be i know.