anything thing i read, see or hear regarding the title above,
my tears would be drained until the eyes are too dry to cry anymore.
because " All of The Stars " is really depressing,
so i got another go at this book.

it's beautiful, just plain beautiful.
i had so much to express,
but when i were to <s>pen</s>type it down now,
my mind miraculously turned into an empty hole,
that hole fully filled is now all gone.

we want to find cure to every sickness.
we want to find solution to every problem.
we want to find answer for every question.
sometimes i wonder,
what would this world become of,
if no one tries to seek what they are hoping to find.
shits happen, and you play along.
would human live a more satisfying life ?
i've always have this picture of a world without sins,
how the firsts to have landed on this planet did not do anything wrong.
the picture, is a happy and pretty sight.
but then wrongs are to be done, because that was the order.
so to the question again,
how would living creatures be satisfied with their lives without harming or worrying.

death is inevitable,
but i tend to witness so much death in fictions lately.
like how i said the book i read all involved deaths,
and now the trend is still continuing.
and every death tears me apart.
especially the death in TFIOS.
the death in Looking for Alaska didn't bring much impact to be,
because that death in my view, beautify even more things,
and i get it how essential that death has to be.
but in TFIOS, although i had speculated something as such,
i didn't hope i'd turn out right.
and this is the kind of right i hate the most,
when i hope i would get things right academically.

practically i started to sob for seventy seven pages, starting from page 214 reading this book.
it was the worst.
i've never cry so hard reading and thank you, John Green for such chance.
i never wanted to understand why two people can't fight alongside each other.
i do not want to.
but i understand why.
i would really love to read the whole story from Augustus' point of view.
and i know i'd be torturing myself for reading it.

i guess i'm gonna cry harder watching the movie.
probably from the beginning,
the moment they meet.