of Despair.
i am a very blessed child with such a blessed life.
so many good and wonderful things and yet,
i still complain and hate everything when things do not go my way.
but i don't know how can i change this part of me.
and i'm so tired of myself already.
just when i was so in despair and kept thinking why my life is always like that,
today,
then i see the little light glowing.
though it's only beneficial to me but not to others,
i felt happy.
so so happy i don't know how to express,
because i had just whined about life.
and the next second there's this happy light.
really hate myself like that.
so double sided but i am not.
but i can't prove because that's what i felt in 2 seconds.
2 different emotions.
a gift from my sister you can never imagine.
i was and still really very touched.
everytime i think about it i'll tear because how many person in your life would do something
just to make you feel happy without regrets.
so many to think of,
but i just let myself to be happy.
and that's all.
thought that haunted me started to haunt her and thus,
she came out with such gift.
sorry if i had really make you fan over that matter.
you know you didn't have to but you did.
so much for the trouble but you just went with everything.
gumawo.
and to that matter that had made me so worry and sad,
finally solved because i think the email they sent weren't able to reach me.
so they sent another one and finally after days of checking my mailbox,
i got it with a miracle.
lucky not but it's just pure blessings.
thank You Lord.
unfairness and all,
i have no right to say,
no right at all.
thank you my sister,
and i don't hate you.
no one hates you.
thank you for making my everyday :)
thank you so much.
one that i can understand but can never trust myself with it.
how i wish i can learn to believe too.
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