blah and so so the long awaited 1st of July.
six months passed,
and me, here, couldn't think of anything that made me feel productive.
for the pass 181 days, there isn't a thing, that i felt proud of doing.
but there's so many events i want them to freeze.
too many times i want time to just stop and, just stop.

of all the meaningful and wonderful journeys of the pass half year,
my personal favourite ( of twenty years of living ) would be my trip to Japan.
man it's really a dream.
close myself and i can still breathe Japan.
or at least i pretend to breathe Japan.
can't say can't tell how i longed to be there,
and then God gave me this amazing chance,
with mum provided me with everything,
and that is one thing i won't forget, in my entire life.
my maiden trip to Japan.
i promise myself,
i will be back.
the craziest thought i have, is to stay there forever.
mum kept asking me ( probably cause it's ridiculous enough haha ),
you haven't been to other countries, how can you sure that Japan is it ?
and i can only reply,
because Japan it is.
my first love, my deepest love.
must be very funny right,
i love KPOP so much, why not Korea.
haha i wonder why too, but i can just feel Japan.
it's just that one moment i so happened to spark my love for Japan in my childhood
and that i'm sure i don't wanna let go.
so i'll make my way there.
back to Japan.

been making some changes to my room,
haha wanted it to be clean & tidy.
so that when i leave for uni,
at least mum can open my door and see and sweet purple room.
and yeap it's 2 weeks to the announcing of placement of uni.
excited yet scared.

days had been fine,
glad to meet Hui Ching whom i haven't really able to talk to since April ^^
and Erica and i got back on track,
still in touch with Amanda mammi
& yea still that good with haopengyou.
aha should've gotten his phone today, am so sorrry T.T

hoping to lay my hands on my lappie soon,
which means i can blog and update more often !
all because of God's grace.

well June's over.
& i have so many halt posts not done with lol
for the next six months,
live your life.
and today will be the day i'll start afresh again.
my deepest apologies to everyone i have offended with my behaviour, attitude or speech.
i'll be a better person.