Happy Thanksgiving !
well it was actually yesterday and today is said to be Black Friday, which is the day when shopping for the season starts officially.

i would really want to shop too
but seriously i'm mad broke.
still owe 2 of my friends money,
*dui bu qi will return asap*
even though i spotted so many pieces of pretty clothes i really can't do anything lol
temptation please go away.

oh so yeah i've wasted my 2 days blankly,
and the next paper is 4 days away FML.

thanksgiving.
i've so much things, people, memories to be thankful for.
this is going to be such a long post,
you can skip it already hehehe.

so,
it's the 23rd today,
and it has been the 4th year we've moved into this beautiful house.
though it's not big, not well furnished but then there's warmth.
i love my house, i love my family.
thank You :)

and then there's so many friends and humans to be thankful for.
people that have been helping me behind my back,
people that have been encouraging me non stop,
people that have been loving me and caring for me,
people that have always been there for me.
thank you, all of you and there's never enough of thank you for this bunch of people :')
and thank You .

and then there's my stuffs.
those solid things where i can see and hold, i'm so thankful that i'm this fortunate to own them.
i'm actually quite a materialistic person,
i always want what i want,
and i really tend to change such behavior.
have to thank parents for the money,
which i spent on impulse most of the time and on food,
and of course the Provider of this family.
thank You.

and then there's all these beautiful memories that have happened.
good or bad, everything is always sorted out in their best way..
thank You :)

and then in the middle of these two days,
something came up,
i was so devastated and sad and i really didn't know what to do.
i hoped for the best, i prayed, it got worse, i accepted the fact, i try to think positive, i accepted myself for being positive, and then it turned out to be better.
from worse to never better.
and i wanted to cry.
it's all i hope for, i prayed for,
and thank You for listening to my prayers.

all of these can't happen without You.
You are just always there,
looking over us, my family, my friends.
thank You, for being so protective;
thank You, for being the provider for my family;
thank You, for making the impossible possible;
thank You for knowing what i've been going through and giving Your best for me;
thank You, for ensuring i'm alive and well;
thank You, for giving me wisdom and guidance;
thank You, for never leaving me no matter what happens.
there's so much more to thank but there are really too much.

God is good.
He is always this good.
i've never once express my feelings and here it is.
i really can't live such blessed life without Your presence.
thank You for making everything happen,
for me.

i love You Lord,
and i will love You always.
& i'm sorry.